Repetition.

Go to bed at 9:45. 

Fall asleep at 10:15

Wake up at 11.

Fall back asleep at 12:30.

Wake up at 1:15.

Fall back asleep at 2:30.

Wake up at 4.

Maybe fall back asleep till the alarm goes off at 5.

Get up, get ready, and leave for work by 6:25.

Work till I get home between 4-6.

Grade, prep, plan, and maybe eat.

Go to bed at 9:45.

Sigh.

Some days I just don't see the point in repeating. Some days I do.

And then there's this...

http://www.cnn.com/video/data/2.0/video/crime/2013/11/16/newday-valencia-rapist-no-jail-time.cnn.html

Cause and Effect

the best often die by their own hand
just to get away,and those left behind
can never quite understand
why anybody
would ever want to
get away
from
them

Charles Bukowski

Are You Still Being a Good Girl?

This is what I heard as I locked my car and started walking towards cvs to pick up my medicine. The question has been looping through my mind all day. 

As soon as he spoke I whipped my head up from my phone and saw him standing there. This little, cocky, half grin crept across his face. I didn't look any longer after that, though. I backed quickly to my car door, unlocked it, and smacked my head on the way in ( I'd find out a few hours later that I cut it open and probably had a concussion). 

Then I drove. I'm not sure how far he followed me, but somehow after thirty minutes I managed to lose him. I drove out to Roundtop and when there weren't any cars behind me, quickly turned around and headed to a friends'. 

I still cannot get those words and the face out of my head. I'm ready to be done.